“You got another letter,” Mira exclaimed as she bounded into my room this morning in her ritual near catapult leap onto my bed.
“What,” I replied blearily, not awake enough to come up with a creative reply.
“Elaine, I swear, you’re not nearly interested enough in your own life,” Mira chided as she shoved a large envelope into my face. “I would have just opened it, but it says ‘Calendula’ on the front, so maybe it’s for Calen?”
“Then whats it doing here?”
“I dunno, but it’s fresh off the presses. I was just downstairs contemplating breakfast when I heard the mailbox-”
“Was it Philemon” I gasped.
“I don’t know what Philemon looks like” Mira sounded put out, “but take a better look, it’s not like his normal envelopes.” I searched the dresser for my old beat up glasses and shoved them on quickly. The envelope was indeed different. Philemon always sent normal letter sized envelopes with a seal on the back. This looked quite identical to the envelope I’d received my quest in, and on the front was indeed ‘Calendula’ scrawled out in sharpie.
“That’s really weird,” I mumbled trying to hold it up to the light.
“Weeeeeell,” Mira sighed impatiently, “are you going to open it?”
“For a girl with such a moral opposition to the Quest Bureau, you certainly are interested in mine, ” I said a bit miffed. “And I really don’t think I ought to, not without Calen at least.” I turned over to squint at my alarm clock. “Is it really 10?”
“Yep,” we all sort of slept in today.
“That’s astounding for you,” I mumbled. Most likely we could have continued with this sort of witty banter for some time, but suddenly a thought shot into my head like a renegade bottle rocket. “WHAT IF THIS IS FROM PHILEMON OR ABOUT HIM OR SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT”
I leapt out of bed and dug around through my carpet of clothing and mess to try to find my phone. Frantically I pulled it out of the pocket of my discarded jeans and called Calen. After quickly briefing her on the situation, we decided to meet over by the school post-haste.
‘What about Josh, should we call him” I asked hastily.
“I’ll try,” Calen replied, “but I think he’s staying with someone over in (blahblahblah) so he may not be able to make it over right away.”
“Well, lets just meet and see what this thing says,” I said hurriedly, then mused, “it might have nothing to do with anything.”
“Riiiight,” Calen said, and I couldn’t quite tell if she was being sarcastic or just mysterious. “See you in a few minutes.”
Mira seemed a bit put off that all the excitement didn’t involve her anymore, but promising to fill her in, and making some poor attempt at putting on clothing, and grabbing a box of cereal, I was out the door and running.
When I arrived at the school, it looked almost eerie for how empty and abandoned it was. Calen was sitting on the wall surrounding the flag pole, looking just as ghostly as ever in the filtered mid-morning light. I was pathetically out of breath as I pulled the envelope out of my backpack and handed it to her.
“Any word from Josh,” I wheezed as she stared at the envelope.
“Yeah,” she replied distractedly, and begin to tear open the envelope slowly and delicately. “He had already taken a bus in…I think he’ll be here in a few…” she trailed off as she pulled the cream-colored paper from the envelope.
I could see the watermark of the Quest Bureau, just the same as my quest summons. I was nearly bursting with wanting to know what it said, but Calen had a very strange expression on her face that made me feel it was better just to let her think for a moment.
After an agonizing minute of staring at her staring at nothing I heard a sound and turned around. Josh was pedaling towards us. I trotted towards him and when he stopped in front of me I said,
“Hey, isn’t that Philemon’s bike,” and I tried to keep my voice down.
“Yeah,” Josh replied, looking disturbed, “I went over to his office this morning, and his backdoor was unlocked, but he wasn’t there. I was hunting around for evidence of something when Calen called.”
“So you stole his bike?” Josh sort of shrugged, looking distressed.
“I didn’t know how else to get over here quickly.” Josh cast a quick look at the still deeply immersed Calen and whispered even more quietly,
“I hope that letter has some good news because I’m getting seriously worried.”
We both looked back at Calen then, and shuffled quietly towards her. She looked up slowly from the paper.
“I think I know where he is,” she pronounced somberly. Then, without any more explanation she stood up and began to walk toward the back of the school. I made a what-in-the-world-is-going-on face at Joshua, and he shrugged.
“Calen,” I said cautiously as I trotted to catch up with her. She was striding determinedly around the school toward the spots field. As I caught up to her she handed me the paper, but continued to wordlessly stare ahead. Something like the panic button was starting to go off in my brain. I hurriedly looked down at the paper and read,
Calendula,
Welcome back to the world of the living.
This is your Quest: backtrack and go find Philemon.
Best Wishes,
The Quest Bureau (cool stamp insignia thing)
I spun around to see where Josh was and nearly crashed into him as he caught up to me. I handed him the paper babbling something not entirely coherent about ‘what in the world is that supposed to mean?!??!??!’He looked, if possible, even more worried.
“I don’t know,” he looked towards Calen again, “but I guess she does, I think we just need to follow her.” I nodded, though I still felt a sort of panic fighting to get out of me in the form of 1000 questions.
Calen had now nearly made it across the back field, and was nearly to the trail that led into the woodsy area that covers several acres behind and to the side of the school, our town’s version of a mini forest preserve.
“Try to see,” Josh whispered, a bit out of breath.
“See what,” I asked, also winded.
“Anything,” he said, “I think that’s what she’s doing.”
The idea of just seeing to see what you could see was something that had always seemed sort of strange and taboo, and anyway, there were just trees here, and-
“crows,” I whispered. I’d almost felt it more than seen it, there was something far off to the right that felt like seeing dark birds. The path split ahead and Calen veered to the right, Josh and I trailing her. I glanced up at Josh and he seemed distant too now, perhaps seeing something in the nothing.
I felt odd again, and suddenly the dream from the bus come back to me. The images of black wings and claws and a small reddish bird, glowing like an ember. I felt a chill as I saw a blackbird fly dawn the trail beside us. Or did I see it? I stopped still, suddenly feeling an incredible foreboding. I knew what I could see with my eyes, sunlight filtering in a friendly way through fall leaves, and a pleasant trail. But I was beginning to see something else, like a gloom spreading outward from something dark ahead.
Calen had already turned a corner ahead, but Josh stopped and came back for me.
“Do you see that?” I tried to keep the quaver out of my voice. He nodded mutely and held out his hand. I took it, and sort of looked down as we went forward half hoping not to see or see anything else. The trail twisted around a few more times and Joshua suddenly came to a halt. Reluctantly, but almost automatically I looked up, and gasped.
Philemon was there, leaning against a tree some just ten feet ahead of us. He looked eerily blank, as far gone as Calen had ever been. He didn’t seem to notice us, or even Calen who was slowly walking toward him now.
“Do you see,” Josh whispered and suddenly tightened his grip on my hand. I didn’t want to, but somewhat apart from my control I began to see, and stifled another gasp.
The gloom had fallen over everything, like the sun had gone behind thick clouds. Where Philemon was standing, there was nothing, not even a shadow or a wisp of a ghost. But there were birds everywhere, darkening the ground with their feathers and filling the air with sharp cries. Calen was shielding her head as she forced her way through them to where they seemed to be concentrated, diving and clawing at something on the ground.
Josh began to walk forward, dragging me with him, but we only made it a few feet further. I could see Calen fighting her way to the center, but it was as though she had stepped off the edge of the world, onto a path only she could follow. The birds were screeching more angrily now and I saw her disappear almost entirely into their darkness.
“Calen,” I heard myself scream, and tried again to lung forward. I felt like I might faint, like there was darkness creeping in an all sides of my vision and there was a roaring in my ears. Everything felt frozen for a moment , then I saw the birds clear a bit and I stumbled forward several steps before tumbling to my knees next to Calen.
She was crouching, protectively holding something to her chest. She slowly unwrapped her arms to reveal a small bird cupped in her hands. It was small, grey, and badly mangled.
“Is it dead,” I choked out. BUt Calen didn’t respond. She was whispering something to the bird, and touched it delicately with an expression of fierce concentration.
Slowly, almost inperceptively at first, a spot of color began to glow in the birds feathers. Then it was like someone fanning a coal back to a flame. The grey dusty appearance shifted to gold then orange, then hot burning red. The bird twitched, then ruffled its feathers and hopped up. It jumped to the edge of Calen’s fingers and then fluttered to the ground between us. We both moved to shelter it, as the ember bird began to pick and scratch ar the ground.
I suddenly noticed that there was a large pile of leaves between us, as the bird seemed to be digging through them. Calen reached out and pushed a handful aside. There were several curled white protrusions now sticking out of the forest floor. As she continued to clear the brush and I felt a new surge of panic rising inside me. She was uncovering bones, a human skeleton.
I could feel myself slipping into fog agin, but Calen continued with grim determination. The red ember bird flitted impatiently around her hands, perching delicately on the exposed ribs.
Just as the chest cavity was cleared, the bird jumped inside, situating itself where the heart would have been. It blazed brightly for a moment and then everything went completely black.
Suddenly my vision returned, and I knew I was seeing again. Calen was kneeling in front of me dappled with the midmorning sun. She was gazing over my shoulder with a determined but anxious expression. I looked behind me to see Philemon leaning against the tree. He was blinking, and looked around for a moment, trying to take in the scene before beginning to collapse forward. Joshua was right there to catch him, and helped him to sit down on the ground.
* * *
There was a long quiet silence that followed. We eventually asked Philemon a few questions to make sure he was ok, or at least ok enough to get back to his house. He said he was. No one seemed to feel up to answering or asking the obvious, ‘what just happened.’ It was almost as thought he peace was still too delicate to disturb, and we all understood in some way that figuring it all could wait, and would take some time.
Eventually Josh said he’d walk Philemon back to the house, and that maybe he’d get back to us later. I thought Calen might abandon me to, but she agreed to go over to the park and just walk a bit. We were both deep in our own thoughts for most of the walk, but eventually I realized I was quite hungry and pulled the box of cereal and began to munch noisily before offering some to Calen.
We ended up sitting in the park for a while, eating cereal on the same bench where we’d had our fight, when was that, a week or too ago. I some ways it felt like a lifetime. We watched the children scrambling over the playground in the distance, and eventually I found my way to a question.
“Did you even ask for a quest?” Calen sat silent for a moment with a bemused smile playing over her face.
“Why would I do that? Everyone knows I hate the Quest Bureau.” She thought for another moment and laughed, “I guess I just got one for free, because I’m just that special.”
“I think you might be,” I said seriously.
“Nah,” she laughed a bit more grimly, “there’s nothing special about having a close personal acquaintance with monsters.”
I would disagree, but I didn’t say so out loud. I just smiled, passed her the cereal box, and said,
“okay, you win, you’re totally average, it must have been a mistake at the Bureau office.”
But the fact of the matter is, that I know it’s not true. What’s more, I think I know now, that this is not a stupid quest.